Hye readers. Thanks coz still sudi follow blog Deera. Mak aii. Emo pulak Deera tonite kan. Huhu. Biasalah kadang kadang kita moodswing jugak kan. Tipikal kut. Hehe. Emmm, hati taktau kenapa. Tapi taktau nak bercerita kat sapa. So, Deera habiskan masa on lappy Deera. Bukak playlists. Played song. Listen to the songs. Connected my lappy to the internet. Online blog. Berceloteh lagi kat sini. Nak bagitau kat orang yang sepatutnya tau tu, tak mungkin lah kut. Sebab dea dah tak sudi nak kawan ngan Deera for a ridiculous reason. Tapi takpe, maybe dea memang rasa tu sebab paling kukuh taknak kawan ngan Deera kut. Takpe lah. Banyak lagi kawan Deera yang sayang Deera lebih dari dea. Maybe. Hmm.
Deera rindu kat sorang kawan Deera nie. Dea bukan setakat kawan actually. Tapi a person yang ever be someone so meaning to me. Well. Typical life cycle again. From strangers we got to know each other, gone thru all the thing together, arguing, fighting, misunderstanding, then back to stranger again. Yeahh. That us. I miss him and absolutely he doesnt know that coz I never ever could tell him. How im going to tell him at the first place. Text him? Ofcourse not. Tu sama je macam Deera break my own promise not to contact him anymore. Nak tengok dea dari jauh? Lagi tak. How could I?? Deera bukan tau sangat tempat nie. Deera just datang tempat nie untuk kurangkan rasa rindu Deera kat dea tapi hakikatnya since Deera sampai tadi sampai sekarang, Deera just terperap kat hotel room nie je. Deera keluar pun untuk makan je. Kereta Deera pun tak berganjak lagi dari parking since sampai tadi. Sungguh tak produktif nya cuti Deera kalau Deera terus cani kan. Takpe, esok Deera balik Sibu balik. Tak sanggup nak terperap di Bintulu ni lama lama padahal tak buat apa apa. Kalau lah bole jumpa dea. Hmmm. Tapi takpelah, janji Deera dah bole kurangkan sikit rasa rindu Deera bila dah ada kat sini. Tempat yang bagi Deera kenangan dengan dea. Lusa planning nak gi Kuching pulak. Again, untuk kurangkan rasa rindu Deera kat dea. Kalau nie je lah cara yang bole tolong Deera untuk tak cari dea tapi bole kurangkan rasa rindu kat dea, Deera buat je. Asalkan Deera tak mungkir janji Deera sendiri.
Bila time time cani, how i wish i cud going back to campus as soon as possible. Sebab kat kampus, Deera akan busy memanjang, so Deera akan kurang berfikir and teringat kat dea. Tapi bila fikir balik, Deera tak patut fikir cani. Deera patut enjoy the time dengan family much. Kannn. Hmm. Soryy Ma, Pa. :(
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