WORDLESS FRIDAY

Assalamualaikum korang. Hopefully korang semua sihat hendaknya. Jangan jadi macam Deera yang agak tak berapa sihat lately. And what more worst migrain datang sekali dengan chest pain. What a great combo. Luckily I knew how to handle it well now. Tapi tu lahh. There's so many things screwed up my mind u all. Well. Manusia mana kat dunia ni yang tak pernah ada masalah and tak pernah berhenti berfikir kann. Sama gak lah dengan Deera ni kadang kadang u all. Tapi takpe, Deera cuba untuk sentiasa jadi positf walau apa pun yang berlaku. Macam yang kawan Deera cakap, Deera girl berbadan techik techik yang kuat! KATANYAAA you all. Huhuhu. Anyhow, dea yang comfortkan Deera gak. Becoz of him Im able to smile in pain. Walaupun datuk Deera sakit, walaupun Deera stress dengan study, and walaupun Deera agak pressure coz of some personal matter. But he's a friend whose willing to comfort me anytime. Walaupun kena cari time sesuai nak contact each other, kena redah data roaming, kena check time difference between U.A.E and Malaysia, dia tetap cuba ada untuk Deera. 

And perasan tak Deera dah tuka background music Deera. Tu sebab dia! Hehehe. Sebabbbbbbbb, dia nyanyikan lagu tu last night sampai Deera tertidur. How I wish he's here in Kuala Lumpur now instead of being there at Qatar. Hmmmm. Bosan kut. Takdek kawan yang act like brother to Deera bila dia jauh sangat cenggini. Tapi lucky me coz dia rajin temankan Deera lately walaupun kadang kadang call time tak patut. Mana tidaknya, perbezaan wajtu kat tempat dia and Deera jauh sangat kut. Tapi faham. But thanks Adeef! :') 

HARGAI MASA YANG ADA WALAU CUMA SESAAT

Assaalamualaikum korang. Its been awhile tak update any entry. Luckily tak bau hapak lagi blog ni u all. Huhu. Maybe there's too much thing to be think of and settle. Yeahh. Perhaps. Anddd, follow with the sadness I feel now. How I wish this will end soon. Uncontrol feeling. Hurt alot like seriously. Emmm, taktau nak share kat sape and even dunno how to share actually. Its not about taktau nak share kat sapa. There's some friend I cud share with but Im much speechless. So, I decided just to share everything here. Based on writing method as if I cud heal a bit. I wish. Hmmm. 

Well. Just so you people know, Im back here at campus since last week. Not exactly last week. But yeahh. Its much less a week. This is not about how homesick am I. Its about how sad Im thinking of grandpa. My grandpa. A dad to my father obviously. The only grandpa that only I have left now. Since grandpa belah mama dah lama takda. About 21 years ago dah takda. Okayy. Let straight to the point you all. Sorry Deera tak seceria and seceloteh as usual. Im too much over my sadness and emotion. Even now Deera still crying. And I cant even handle it. Beyond my control indeed. Lebih lebih lagi bila family keep updating bout my grandpa. How Im gonna stop crying over someone I love and had raised me up. Okayyy. Its hurt! Deera kat sini and family Deera kat sana. And unfortunately Deera takbole balik. 

Sehari selepas Deera flee back to KL. Grandpa Deera dimasukkan ke ward kat hospital hometown Deera. And that time, Deera just risau sikit sebab papa said he wasnt that bad. Its just grandpa fainted and agak lama dari biasa je. So, papa said he's gonna be ok soon. But a few days later, I got a news from mom that grandpa didnt ever recovered yet. And what more worst masih dalam keadaan tak sedar. But papa keep hiding. And at one point, mama keep updating. Then mama said grandpa disahkan strok. Then still papa didnt come clean. Until grandpa dipindahkan ke hospital lain after dia dah sedar. Grandpa dipindah ke hospital where's my aunty worked. And baru hari tu papa nak bercerita sejujur-jujurnya bahawa datuk Deera dah tak mamu bercakap, tak mampu bergerak. and tak mampu sangat untuk melihat and what more worst,otak datuk Deera dah tak berfungsi sebelah. 

Hati mana tak sedih. Semua orang boleh jenguk dia. Tapi Deera tak boleh. And yang paling Deera sedih, we cant even able to meet at airport at the day yang Deera kena fly balik KL sebab uncle Deera lambat sampai airport. Kalau lah Deera lamat sikit je check in, maybe Deera sempat lagi jumpa datuk Deera dalam keadaan yang normal and boleh bercakap dengan Deera. Kalau lah Deera lambat sikit je. Sikit je!! Deera kesal sangat. Kesal sangat sangat. Yang buat Deera lagi sedih, semua family Deera cakap datuk Deera nampak sangat sedih and termenung je lepas tak sempat jumpa Deera kat airport tu. Sehari lepas tu datuk Deera terus tetiba sakit yang terus msuk hospital tu. And now dah jadi macam ini. Deera kat sini mampu dengar je family Deera update tentang datuk Deera. How Im gonna stop crying. This is so killing me. Kalau lah Deera sedar yang when we got into the deeper conversation last few nite before Deera balik tu lah the last time yang Deera akan dengar segala apa yang dia cakap. :(

ENJOYING HARI HARI TERAKHIR BERCUTI

Assalamualaikum korang! Selamat pagi! Hehehehe. Tah pape Deera ni kann. Pepagi dah mengupdate entry baru. Macam takdak keje lain. Hehehe. Waiting for Subuh prayer yaa. Nak tengok tv pulak bosan. Anyway, today dah March! So hello March. Gonna say hello too to my second semester soon. Hari ni dah 1 March. So, esok dah 2nd March. Less than 48 hours from now, Deera dah kena fly back to KL. Taknak balik!! :(

Emmm.. since Deera dah nak balik. So Deera enjoy my time much with le familia. kebetulan pulak Grandma n Grandpa Deera ada kat sini haa. So banyaklah anak anak diorang yang datang menjenguk and tak semena mena jadi family gathering tau. Seronok nya bila family berkumpul. I do love it. Dah kebetulan berkumpul, so Deera test power memasak lahh. Hehehe. Dah berbulan retire jadi chef tak bertauliah masuk dapur kut. Luckily skill ni walaupun tak seberapa, still tak hilang lagi. Im craving for spageti, so Deera masakkan spageti. Habis jugak u all. Bukan Deera makan sorang. Sefamily makan haa. Sedap lah tu kut. Perasan sedap pulak dah Deera nie. Hehehe. Then malam tadi Deera masakkan chicken mushroom soup for our family dinner. Awwwwww! Habis lagii. Licin seperiuk besar. Ni yang seronok masak ni. Takda yang lebih seronok masak kalau tengok apa yang Deera masak tu habis dimakan. Taklah teruk sangat rasa tu kut. Hehehe. Thanks enjoying my meal le familia. ILY all :)

Then,, selain family. Kebetulan kawan Deera yang Adeed tu balik Malaysia bercuti. Request masak pulak dah. Apsal la semua orang request Deera masak cuti nie. Rindu masakan Deera ke? Hahaha. Luckily dea tolong Deera masak haa, Thats my friend. Sangat sangat sporting, supportive, kind, cool, andddd wow! Hehehe. Why wow?? Dia versatile kut. Flexible. Bole buat pape je. Termasuk tolong Deera masak walaupun pada hakikat dia yang request Deera masak untuk dia. Seronok tengok dia makan coz its been awhile kitorang tak jumpa. Mesti wondering kann?? Dia bukan boyfie Deera u all. Jangan salah faham tau. Dia kawan baik Deera. We've known each other for years. Since Deera baru baru masuk sekolah menengah lagi. I do love him. and he does love me. But dont get wrong. We love as friend n as brother and sister. Okayy?? Hehehe. Tapi sedihhhh. Dia dah fly back to workplace. U.A.E nun jauh disana haa. Bila lah nak balik jumpa Deera lagi. Asyik skype ja. Tu jelah cara nak berhubung selalu. Feel so lucky ada kawan yang tak pernah lupa Deera camtu. So he is one of the person yang bersama Deera enjoying cuti cuti Deera. Thanks ya Adeef! ILY! :)